I’m four months pregnant with our fourth child (not sure I’ve mentioned that yet, but if I haven’t you won’t be too surprised if you’re a regular reader here), and lately I battle a fair bit of fatigue. I slept terribly on Friday night and yesterday woke up feeling exhausted and overwhelmed. It had been a long week, and as hunting season just started my husband was out for the morning, so I was on my own with the three kids. That plus preparing for a full weekend – Halloween today and our eldest’s fifth birthday on Monday – and I was a crank.
The two bigger kids bickered considerably throughout the morning,the baby refused her morning nap, and when my husband returned I begged off our son’s 11 AM soccer game (he took all the kids) so I could go back to bed. As I lay down I felt God prodding me. All I wanted to do was crumple into a heap of moodiness and slumber. But, as God pointed out, I was riddled with thanklessness. In my mind I was rehearsing all the frustrating things about my life and home and family, feeling completely sorry for myself, when in reality He has given me blessing upon blessing. Here it was, the five-year anniversary of my becoming a mother, and all I could do was internally whine. (more…)